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Huh?

[ He's read the quests for this month already, but Choubee's only coherent response to Tsumugi's sudden declaration of being his fairy gemmother is mild bafflement. Eye growing wide for a brief moment before his brows furrow, creating an obvious crease, and the corners of his lips curl into a frown. ]

What makes you think that I even got a wish? If I wanted shit to happen then I'd just do it myself.

[ Isn't that obvious? And even if Tsumugi's suddenly a little less squishy than usual doesn't mean he's gonna get him to get soft!! ]

-- Anyway, this book here makes that fairy bitch sound like a parent or whatever. You're no where close to what my ma or pa was. [ And for the sake of simplicity they're in the library of all things. Choubee seated and back resting against one of the shelves as he has a book resting on his lap. ]

[ a little less squishy than usual? just say he's rock-hard, you ruffian. god. tsumugi's relieved that choubee didn't make a big deal of his "new year, new literal me" deal, but he sort of wishes that -

mm, no, it's not his turn to make wishes right now, is it? better abstain from saying anything for now in case the town overhears and make tsumugi's perpetually bad luck even worse. not even the GOOD LUCK that he'd gotten from the omikuji that he'd gotten last "christmas" helped his matters at all. ]

Oh, you've read that part perfectly! Well, almost. That's not what the story is trying to say?

[ another tutoring session at the library as usual. tsumugi squints at the page choubee's focusing on, hand reaching up to his face to adjust his glasses only to realize that he'd left his glasses at home since he doesn't need corrective eyewear as a gem anymore. sweet. ]

I'm not trying to be anybody's parents here; honestly I don't think I'd be able to handle you if you were my child, Choubee-kun. [ he jests. probably. ] But you should have at least one simple wish, like a simple meal or for someone to do chores for you... It doesn't even have to be complicated, so wishing that your worst enemy should die a thoroughly painful death is, of course, out of the question.

[ DO NOT PUT WORDS INTO MY MOUTH YOU HEATHEN. ]

She was gettin' all up in her business like a parent would... [ He mumbles it out, somewhat embarrassed but not immediately going silent to simply ignore what Tsumugi has to tell him. He just closes the goddamn book. ]

Hey, I was an okay kid. [ Not that he's anywhere close to the child he was in the past. He snorts, however, completely shrugging it off. ] Also that's a pretty shitty rule -- killing someone ain't even complicated! You could do it easy, can't ya, since you're a rock now?

[ Then again he wouldn't want him to. Tsumugi is too kindhearted of a person; he can't kill another person and Choubee is well aware of that by now. ]

I do all of that for myself. I don't need you doing anything else for me. [ There's a short pause. A quick inhale and exhale, a sudden idea coming to mind. ] You promise you'll make any wish of mine come true?

That's usually because fairy godmothers appear to children with bad parents and terrible childhoods... If only it were easy for someone like that to appear out of the blue just to grant you whatever you want, no matter how impossible it may be.

[ just random musing, until he sharply turns to choubee at his homicidal remark. maybe he shouldn't have brought the killing part up - ]

I really don't want to kill anybody, though! [ not anymore; he's put that miserable past behind him and he'd like to keep it that way. ] You can easily just talk it out with someone instead of relying on some magical wish to make things okay again, jeez. Besides, I'm still prone to breakage in this state, so I'd rather not lose a limb while carrying out a wish like that.

[ he lets out a sigh, despite being a gem who lacks lungs now, expression softening. ]

But other than that, yes. I'll do anything, promise. [ hopefully this declaration won't send him to hell again. choubee wouldn't do that, would he? ]

[ Random musing, but Choubee's expression seems to shift the moment Tsumugi comments on the fact. He never had stories to help him go day by day; his optimism was born and crafted purely by every experience where he managed to survive despite all the odds being against him. The thought of someone appearing out of no where and suddenly making his past less complicated -- he doesn't know if he'd feel more insulted or homicidal. ]

We can put you back together, right? [ He's not arguing about it anymore, he's simply curious. ] It'd be a hassle if you permanently lost an arm just because it broke off.

[ There's something in what Tsumugi says that Choubee finds himself responding with a buzz; a kind form of authority, or perhaps confidence, that he'll be able to make his wish come true. What should be relief is immediately replaced with self-disgust at the sheer thought of lowering his defenses and believing in another person for once. He's certain that Tsumugi won't try to betray or ridicule him -- he's too weak, even as a gem, Choubee would certainly find a way to crush him into dust if the situation called for it. And there's also that familiar, small but darker feeling that lurks in between his bones, the quick impulse to hurt him, though admittedly it's something he is barely conscious of and doesn't fully understand.

He turns to look at him, a little guardedly. Grasps after an explanation that satisfies him -- or he feels like it does, at least. He doesn't really know. Only knows that something in him quickens and hurts with the vivid reminder that pulling someone close means that they will inevitably be torn away from him. ]

I dunno.

[ He knows that explains nothing and isn't what the other wants to hear. ]

Stay with me. Just... don't go somewhere where I can't find you.

[ gems can be repaired, yes, and tsumugi's fortunate enough that he hasn't cracked under pressure quite literally since his transformation. even so, he'd rather not inconvenience the other gems about his clumsiness if his unluckiness catches up to him; having anyone worry about him remains to be an alien concept to him to this day

which is why choubee's wish just... catches him off-guard. it's tempting, though, to laugh it off but the sincerity in the other male's voice that seems out of place would have tugged at his heart if it were still there inside him.

thankfully, he's not that heartless. not anymore. maybe choubee has also sensed a kind of darkness inside tsumugi, which is why they'd grown so close over these past few months. ]

I...

[ what would he even say to that?! he blinks once, twice, his glossy bangs covering his eyes as his gaze falls to the floor with clenched fists. ]

That's too broad for me to do anything with, though. [ his voice is level enough, but he's so relieved that he's lost the ability to breathe because he could've been hyperventilating by now. ] Do you mind being a little more specific, Choubee-kun? I don't want us to fail a quest again.

[ failing him in general, he means. ]

[ Now he's embarrassed.

And he realizes just how stupid that wish was. How stupid he is; this world is not like his own, where there's something he can obtain and live forever -- and more importantly, a world where Touma is. What is he doing asking for something to make him feel so comfortable when he already has a catalyst for that? ]

...

[ He wants to say fuck it. Fail it. It doesn't matter, it's not like they'll die -- ]

Let me pat your head, I guess.

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