Who told you so, dilly dilly, Who told you so? ‘Twas my own heart, dilly dilly, That told me so.
ouch is one of the most intimate, romantic ways to be close to someone else. The Town knows this very well -- the Town wants everyone to be as close as possible.
Perhaps that's why this bonding is so...aggressive.
Because you're in for quite the shock on this otherwise peaceful day when you brush against the next person on your path.
Maybe you're going out of your way to touch people. Maybe you've got a terrible urge to just see what's lurking in someone's heart. Maybe you trip over a conveniently placed rock -- whatever the cause, you're getting an up close and personal look into someone else's heart.
Welcome to Awash's eighteenth event log, everyone! Further information on this event can be found here at the OOC post. You are welcome to make your own logs and posts for this event!
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So you're supposed to be him? Because you're kind of bad at it. You haven't even sworn once. [She heard him say "fuck" at least four times, System. You need to get with the times.]
....And what do you mean "not smart enough"? Badmouthing someone who is actually a good person and then calling me dumb now, are we? Are you prepared to defend that with your life, you stupid game?
[ Honestly, if she wants to beat on the System, Shen Qingqiu says go right ahead. He's been beating his head against it for years now! Someone else can have a crack at it. As far as he's seen how Airplane-bro handles his System, no one's able to do anything about it. Then again, Airplane ... he really... tends to give up a little too easily... ]
〖 No one has defeated the System. Not Shen Qingqiu. No one. If you wish to attempt it. The System will humor your attempts. 〗
More than you know. [Maybe. But it's fine, she's not backing down on this point.]
And before I attempt anything, will this hurt him? [Because she'll hate it but if it hurts Shen Qingqiu in any kind of way then she'll have to let The System live.]
[He shouldn't be because she's not much of a fighter. Her powers are best suited to information gathering. But she doesn't need her powers for this.]
Did someone once tell you it was cute when you didn't know how to use your words or something? Because they lied.
At least I'm smart enough to know not to trust some random text boxes trying to tell me what to think and not thinking for myself. But then again maybe you don't understand what it means to be human in the first place?
He sage nods a little about that one. He should have thought of saying that, too, but then the System isn't supposed to be human. It never felt human and felt more like it was just outside of everything happening, too. Without the guilt! How's that fair? ]
〖 The System was never meant to be human. This heart, however, is human. It understands the person inside of it more than someone that is starting to know him. It is attempting to be helpful. 〗
[The most deadpan ever:] You know that people are the worst judges of themselves, right?
So are you saying you're him and he's insulting himself? Well then how about I tell you this: people don't care about you because they think you deserve to be loved. I trust him and I trust myself. I'll care about him if I want to, no matter what anyone tries to tell me.
[ Rude! I'm seeing myself exactly as I need to see myself! ]
〖 He is judging himself well. We would wish you would judge him as scum. 〗
[ But really, he can't help but let out a small sigh. Miss Queen of Crime, don't you think... it's okay to admit defeat? I don't want you to have to stay in here forever. This place is the worst. ]
〖 Deserve to be loved. Care if you want to. Being so stubborn. You may end up remaining in here. Can you not? The owner of this heart does not want you to stay here forever. Denouncement will grant 1 million points. The highest score anyone has achieved in this heart! Please consider it!! 〗
Well, you can wish all you want. I refuse. [What part of her trusting in her own judgement does this so-called System not understand?]
And I don't want to stay here either. Can I just denounce you, then? If you're a reflection of his [air quotes] true feelings [end air quotes] then why can't insulting you be the same thing?
[ He stands a little straighter as he looks at the pop-up box.
I feel she has us there, you fuck. ]
〖 It is hardly the same. 〗
[ Shen Qingqiu makes a gesture like he's dismissing the box before he sits down on the ground next to Shiho. Anyway, I think it's best if we let her go, heart. I like her. She's a good girl and keeping her around isn't good. How about we admit defeat this one time? ]
〖 ............ -30 points 〗
[ Hey! He is back up on his feet. That's unfair! ]
〖 Punishment now to be decided. Within a few seconds, your right arm will become numb. Please think of playing this game more seriously. 〗
[ He reaches to grab the box to violently shake it. But his hands fly through the box itself. Knock it off! ]
[She's about to say that this so-called System is really starting to show just how petty it really is. And then she gets dinged with a penalty like that and her shoulders are tight when she feels her right arm go numb.
Rather than scaring her off though, this just makes her glare stubbornly at the box. Give up? The thought never crosses her mind for even a second, especially now that she's been threatened.]
Of course you'd be petty too, Bargain Bin Alexa. Then what would you say is "playing this game more seriously"?
[ He breathes out. No. Stop it. His hand continues to phase through the screen. But he can't just let this keep going on. The only way to gain points is to do things Shiho wouldn't do; to do things no one would do!
She's played enough of the game! Shen Qingqiu continues to try to beat his hand against the pop-up box. While his hand keeps phasing through it, the screen starts to crack a little. ]
〖 Error. Error. Please gain at least 1000 points within the next sixty seconds or be forcibly removed from this heart. 〗
[ More cracks appear upon the box. ]
〖 To do so, you need only choose the right option.
1. Kill the villain 2. Kill the villain 3. Kill the villain
Choose and you'll be set free with 10,000 points. The highest score. 〗
[The box cracks and Shiho is immediately looking at it, at the cracks that are spreading.
Is someone there? She tenses and then glares at the words on the box anew. Whoever it is, likely doesn't agree with what's happening either. ...Right? She squares her shoulders.]
Options means more than one. Not three of the same thing. The only villain I can see here is you. So I choose to get rid of you, Bargain Bin Alexa.
It crashes into the screen a second time before there is a break. Good, good. The space separating them breaks apart like he threw a rock through a window. He hops through the anti-space he was in to the one that Shiho is.
Letting out a sigh, he leans forward. ]
What was that?! Do you think that if you yell at something long enough that it'll go your way?! Don't antagonize things that have the power to cripple you! [ He holds his hands out as his arms are visibly shaking. What if he hadn't been able to break through! What if! Does she even know what could have happened?!
[But then she's being lectured and her softer expression is immediately a frown again. He leans in and she definitely doesn't lean back, standing her ground.]
I wasn't yelling. This-
[Her arm, maybe still a little bit numb.] Is nothing. If something is wrong then it's wrong, no matter what. And I would have thought of something.
[So don't yell at her! Because now that she seems to be out of danger, all of the emotions she'd been keeping down are starting to surface. She swipes the back of one hand over her eyes and glares.]
[ He wants to scold her some more but when she swipes the back of her hand over her eyes -- the fight leaves him. He can't say that he's so much of a villain as to terrorize a teenage girl until she's in tears. ]
All right.
[ He breathes out a small sigh. ] That is hardly nothing but it should ... the numbness should go away eventually. The rest of the problem is having you leave this place. [ Shen Qingqiu wants to be respectful in his own way by giving her space, but he steps forward to lightly rest his hand on her head. It's okay. It's okay. ]
But crying because she was too overwhelmed was not. Caught between wanting to swat at his hand while also wanting to just let him pat her head for a little longer... she can't choose. So instead she glares even if the effect is spoiled by the fact that she's still tearing up.
She's still going to be stubborn about this though.]
It's nothing. I've had worse. [Being shocked by a collar on her neck was so much worse. At least this didn't hurt and she tries weakly to curl her hand, mouth pulling into a frown as it takes so much more effort.]
All I have to do is just insult you, right? Then you're dumb for not knowing how to care about yourself. That's what the stupid box was saying. You think you're so bad and so mean, but you just do good, dumb things.
[ Resting one hand over her shoulder, he wonders if he can fix what his heart has rendered numb. He frowns when it seems like it will only heal when they escape from the chucklefuck land that his heartscape has become. ]
Yes, yes, I'm dumb. [ His words are consoling as he dabs lightly against her eyes with the sleeve of his robe. ] I don't think that all I do is good. I certainly have made you worry about me, ah?
But she lets him wipe her tears as she takes a shaky breath in an effort to compose herself once again.]
And no one ever does good all the time. [Goodness knows she doesn't.] If you make a mistake then just apologize and try to be better. You're supposed to be an adult, aren't you? Even if you're a dumb adult.
I supposed to be an adult. That is why I have to be harder on myself than anyone else.
[ Satisfied that her face looks cleaner, he lets his hand drop away. ]
But I don't like the idea of my mistakes spilling over and causing you problems. So, for your sake, I'll do what I can to say I'm sorry. I'll try to take step forwards instead of causing messes like what my heart presently is. [ A softer smile. ] So don't worry about this teacher, ah?
[ Shen Qingqiu definitely makes a face at seeing how his heart is starting to melt around them, and that they are beginning to return to Chroma. His head bows as it seems like his heart really wants him to make these promises to other people -- it really wants him to say it over and over until he will do what he says.
Then that makes you a really, really dumb adult. [But then again, that's how Minamoto is sometimes too, isn't he? How Director Tsubomi, how Sakaki, how the myriad of adults in her life seem to be as well. They're always hard on themselves while telling the children under their care not to be, that mistakes were made and the best course of action was always to pick yourself back up and try again.
Because being an adult means being hypocritical? She glares now that he's pulled his hand away though she can't help the way she visibly relaxes now that they're both safe.
Bowing though is probably a mistake because it puts him within forehead-poking distance. Which she does right now, flicking her finger gently right between his eyes.]
It is an exaggerated "ow" even in his head since the poke is very light. He straightens up as he lightly rubs where she poked. ]
Then, I shall do what I can to give you less to worry about, Lady Shiho. [ Lifting his hands up, he knows that is absolutely not what she wants to hear so he is already surrendering and apologizing with his gestures. ] I shall promise to be less of a "dumb adult," how is that?
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ouch is one of the most intimate, romantic ways to be close to someone else. The Town knows this very well -- the Town wants everyone to be as close as possible.
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....And what do you mean "not smart enough"? Badmouthing someone who is actually a good person and then calling me dumb now, are we? Are you prepared to defend that with your life, you stupid game?
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〖 What do you know? 〗
[ Honestly, if she wants to beat on the System, Shen Qingqiu says go right ahead. He's been beating his head against it for years now! Someone else can have a crack at it. As far as he's seen how Airplane-bro handles his System, no one's able to do anything about it. Then again, Airplane ... he really... tends to give up a little too easily... ]
〖 No one has defeated the System. Not Shen Qingqiu. No one. If you wish to attempt it. The System will humor your attempts. 〗
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And before I attempt anything, will this hurt him? [Because she'll hate it but if it hurts Shen Qingqiu in any kind of way then she'll have to let The System live.]
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Should he be worried? ]
〖 ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ 〗
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Did someone once tell you it was cute when you didn't know how to use your words or something? Because they lied.
At least I'm smart enough to know not to trust some random text boxes trying to tell me what to think and not thinking for myself. But then again maybe you don't understand what it means to be human in the first place?
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He sage nods a little about that one. He should have thought of saying that, too, but then the System isn't supposed to be human. It never felt human and felt more like it was just outside of everything happening, too. Without the guilt! How's that fair? ]
〖 The System was never meant to be human. This heart, however, is human. It understands the person inside of it more than someone that is starting to know him. It is attempting to be helpful. 〗
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So are you saying you're him and he's insulting himself? Well then how about I tell you this: people don't care about you because they think you deserve to be loved. I trust him and I trust myself. I'll care about him if I want to, no matter what anyone tries to tell me.
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〖 He is judging himself well. We would wish you would judge him as scum. 〗
[ But really, he can't help but let out a small sigh. Miss Queen of Crime, don't you think... it's okay to admit defeat? I don't want you to have to stay in here forever. This place is the worst. ]
〖 Deserve to be loved. Care if you want to. Being so stubborn. You may end up remaining in here. Can you not? The owner of this heart does not want you to stay here forever. Denouncement will grant 1 million points. The highest score anyone has achieved in this heart! Please consider it!! 〗
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And I don't want to stay here either. Can I just denounce you, then? If you're a reflection of his [air quotes] true feelings [end air quotes] then why can't insulting you be the same thing?
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I feel she has us there, you fuck. ]
〖 It is hardly the same. 〗
[ Shen Qingqiu makes a gesture like he's dismissing the box before he sits down on the ground next to Shiho. Anyway, I think it's best if we let her go, heart. I like her. She's a good girl and keeping her around isn't good. How about we admit defeat this one time? ]
〖 ............ -30 points 〗
[ Hey! He is back up on his feet. That's unfair! ]
〖 Punishment now to be decided. Within a few seconds, your right arm will become numb. Please think of playing this game more seriously. 〗
[ He reaches to grab the box to violently shake it. But his hands fly through the box itself. Knock it off! ]
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Rather than scaring her off though, this just makes her glare stubbornly at the box. Give up? The thought never crosses her mind for even a second, especially now that she's been threatened.]
Of course you'd be petty too, Bargain Bin Alexa. Then what would you say is "playing this game more seriously"?
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[ He breathes out. No. Stop it. His hand continues to phase through the screen. But he can't just let this keep going on. The only way to gain points is to do things Shiho wouldn't do; to do things no one would do!
She's played enough of the game! Shen Qingqiu continues to try to beat his hand against the pop-up box. While his hand keeps phasing through it, the screen starts to crack a little. ]
〖 Error. Error. Please gain at least 1000 points within the next sixty seconds or be forcibly removed from this heart. 〗
[ More cracks appear upon the box. ]
〖 To do so, you need only choose the right option.
1. Kill the villain
2. Kill the villain
3. Kill the villain
Choose and you'll be set free with 10,000 points. The highest score. 〗
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Is someone there? She tenses and then glares at the words on the box anew. Whoever it is, likely doesn't agree with what's happening either. ...Right? She squares her shoulders.]
Options means more than one. Not three of the same thing. The only villain I can see here is you. So I choose to get rid of you, Bargain Bin Alexa.
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It crashes into the screen a second time before there is a break. Good, good. The space separating them breaks apart like he threw a rock through a window. He hops through the anti-space he was in to the one that Shiho is.
Letting out a sigh, he leans forward. ]
What was that?! Do you think that if you yell at something long enough that it'll go your way?! Don't antagonize things that have the power to cripple you! [ He holds his hands out as his arms are visibly shaking. What if he hadn't been able to break through! What if! Does she even know what could have happened?!
Oh wait. Hey, he's out. Whatever! Point! Still! Stands! ]
1/2
2/2
I wasn't yelling. This-
[Her arm, maybe still a little bit numb.] Is nothing. If something is wrong then it's wrong, no matter what. And I would have thought of something.
[So don't yell at her! Because now that she seems to be out of danger, all of the emotions she'd been keeping down are starting to surface. She swipes the back of one hand over her eyes and glares.]
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All right.
[ He breathes out a small sigh. ] That is hardly nothing but it should ... the numbness should go away eventually. The rest of the problem is having you leave this place. [ Shen Qingqiu wants to be respectful in his own way by giving her space, but he steps forward to lightly rest his hand on her head. It's okay. It's okay. ]
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But crying because she was too overwhelmed was not. Caught between wanting to swat at his hand while also wanting to just let him pat her head for a little longer... she can't choose. So instead she glares even if the effect is spoiled by the fact that she's still tearing up.
She's still going to be stubborn about this though.]
It's nothing. I've had worse. [Being shocked by a collar on her neck was so much worse. At least this didn't hurt and she tries weakly to curl her hand, mouth pulling into a frown as it takes so much more effort.]
All I have to do is just insult you, right? Then you're dumb for not knowing how to care about yourself. That's what the stupid box was saying. You think you're so bad and so mean, but you just do good, dumb things.
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Yes, yes, I'm dumb. [ His words are consoling as he dabs lightly against her eyes with the sleeve of his robe. ] I don't think that all I do is good. I certainly have made you worry about me, ah?
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But she lets him wipe her tears as she takes a shaky breath in an effort to compose herself once again.]
And no one ever does good all the time. [Goodness knows she doesn't.] If you make a mistake then just apologize and try to be better. You're supposed to be an adult, aren't you? Even if you're a dumb adult.
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[ Satisfied that her face looks cleaner, he lets his hand drop away. ]
But I don't like the idea of my mistakes spilling over and causing you problems. So, for your sake, I'll do what I can to say I'm sorry. I'll try to take step forwards instead of causing messes like what my heart presently is. [ A softer smile. ] So don't worry about this teacher, ah?
[ Shen Qingqiu definitely makes a face at seeing how his heart is starting to melt around them, and that they are beginning to return to Chroma. His head bows as it seems like his heart really wants him to make these promises to other people -- it really wants him to say it over and over until he will do what he says.
What a bully!! ]
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Because being an adult means being hypocritical? She glares now that he's pulled his hand away though she can't help the way she visibly relaxes now that they're both safe.
Bowing though is probably a mistake because it puts him within forehead-poking distance. Which she does right now, flicking her finger gently right between his eyes.]
Don't tell me what to do. I'll worry if I want.
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It is an exaggerated "ow" even in his head since the poke is very light. He straightens up as he lightly rubs where she poked. ]
Then, I shall do what I can to give you less to worry about, Lady Shiho. [ Lifting his hands up, he knows that is absolutely not what she wants to hear so he is already surrendering and apologizing with his gestures. ] I shall promise to be less of a "dumb adult," how is that?
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Maybe she should have asked him not to be such a dramatic adult too while she was at it.]
We'll see if you can actually manage it first.