awashlogs | Event Seventeen.

[ He looks down at the hand upon him, and his shoulders drop just a little. It is like Binghe to grab onto his robes -- he always finds that endearing about him how he clings to him. ]

You're disappointed. [ A small smile. ] You needn't worry so much about your cultivation. You are growing to be as strong as you wish, ... so why rush down the peak so fast, ah?

[...she's not sure he actually heard her? But there's a reaction when she touches him so it seems he's aware of her...just not as her.

She feels guilty: because these words aren't for her. And she feels sad too: because this kind of sounds like a conversation you'd have after an argument.

She considers, for half a second, slapping him. But maybe she'll save that as a last resort.

For now, She holds onto him more tightly.]

You need to snap out of it. I'm not who you think I am!

Not who I think you are?

[ He feels confused. Of course, he feels confused. Seeing Luo Binghe is enough to jump his heart in his throat each and every time!! Hearing him call him "Shizun," that is equally bad!! What more can he do? He gets a little confused. What of it?! It's fine...

But when he is held more tightly ... his expression softens considerably. He lifts his hand to rest it on his disciple's head. Right, right. You're a strong cultivator and so you feel I'm coddling you too much and treating you as a disciple that first came to the peak. I understand!! ]

To be mad at your teacher and master, that is no way to act. It is that of a spoiled child. Have I spoiled you so much? [ A slight pause and immediately, he relents. ] I will allow this anger, however. You're allowed it.

[ Right. ] If you feel I have done you wrong, you can be mad. But ... do not let that hate cloud your heart completely.

[Okay. So he can hear her too. When she sees his confusion she thinks it's worked but then...exactly how is he interpreting her words?! Come on! She can't follow his logic at all!!

...maybe she should just slap him. But whoever he's seeing is clearly someone important is it really okay for her to slap him while (to his eyes) looking like someone like that?! Last resort...last resort, okay?]

I'm not your student! It's Kaoru!

[ Kaoru? KAORU!?

He hates this! He hates this!! He's practicing all these things that he wants to say to Luo Binghe -- shut up, he has to, if he doesn't, he'll definitely die when he sees him -- and he's telling them to everyone but the protagonist! Why is there so much unfairness in the world!? Why is it like this?! ]

... it seems I am still hallucinating. [ What the fuckity fuck else can I say?! ] I am sorry you have to see me in such a pathetic state. [ I am going to dig a hole and throw myself in it! It's safer in the dirt!! ]

Edited 2019-01-20 19:31 (UTC)

[Well. He knows it's her now.

That means it's okay for her to punch him on the arm. Not as hard as she can but definitely hard.]

Don't call yourself pathetic. {She's actually a bit mad. Whether he's referring to how he got caught up in the hallucinations or what he said...she doesn't agree that any of it was pathetic.]

[ He flinches back. Ow.

His hand goes to where she hit him and rubs his arm. Ow?! What is this tough love!! ]

Is unseemly better?

No!

[She doesn't punch him again but she raises her hand like that's a possibility she might follow through with.]

It's not like you're the only one affected by these things! Would you call everyone else pathetic or unseemly too?

[ YIKES!

He steps back. Sure, he knows this is Kaoru but she looks and sounds like Luo Binghe. It still is a jolt to his heart to hear the sudden exclamation and see an arm raised!! ]

Not at all. I am merely saying my own actions are that way.

Why? [She lowers her hand at least but she's definitely taking a step closer when he steps back. Now though the initial anger had cleared a bit and she looks a bit sad.] Name the exact thing that makes any of that pathetic or unseemly! Because I don't see it. If anything...I'm just sorry that the person you wanted to say those words to isn't here to hear them.

[ Since it is Kaoru, he can tell her. ]

Because I did not listen to you. Rather than tell him the truth of what is to come, I attempted to cover it up so that he would not know. I once more did everything I could to hide his fate rather than to let him know of it.

[ Also! It's airing out a lot of dirty laundry!! Not even all of it! Just a little! Do you know just what the original goods did to him!? Outrageous! ]

You can say that you are sorry, but... this teacher thinks it is better that it is you and not him, Akashi Kaoru. [ Because once more I'm lying to his fucking face!!! ]

Edited 2019-01-21 06:45 (UTC)

[...oh. So that's who he saw. That explains a lot.]

You realize we had to interrogate Minamoto after we'd already heard about part of the prediction, right? It's not like we just asked him nicely.

[It was a real and honest interrogation! And they're good at it, too.

The fact that he's saying it's unseemly, it an improvement, really.]

[Now it's time to lighten the mood!

She nudged him on the shoulder. Better than being punched, right?] You really sound like a doting teacher though. I wouldn't be surprised if your student was spoiled.

[Says the spoiled girl.]

[ What a nice girl. I really thought that I was going to end up roasted on a spit! ]

Negotiating, huh?

[ I'm going to be needing to do a lot of fucking negotiating with he gets back!! ]

[ Yes, being nudged is much better than being punched! He appreciates the nudge a lot more. ]

I didn't spoil him that much. [ Honestly, I kept in a room nearby so that he could cook and clean for me. I don't think I can call that spoiling at all!! I'd call it child labor?! And given what other tasks he had to better his cultivation, wasn't I actually very strict?! ]

I am only showing such a side now.

[She laughs.]

...negotiating is one word for it.

[She hums. You know. Like she doesn't believe him at all.] I'm not sure I believe you. You're going to need to offer some proof if you're going to make that claim!

This teacher recalls someone saying that they would hold someone upside down until they cried. But my memory is fuzzy.

[ A small head tilt. ]

Proof? [ He makes a waving hand gesture to attempt to bat away unseen voices that are attempting to push themselves into the conversation. Yes, yes! I fucking hear you!! ] He was often tasked with cooking and cleaning. And there were times when I would have him run laps around the peak as punishment.

I would call that quite strict.

I've never done that to Minamoto!

[BUT YOU DID IT TO SOMEONE?!

...those all sound perfectly normal, dude.]

But what would you punish him for?

[ Lucky Minamoto.

Shen Qingqiu pauses as he wonders what is it he punished Luo Binghe for. Him personally, of course!! The original would invent things that the disciple had done! He didn't make him run laps that often since the times that he did, Luo Binghe would be so tired that he'd collapse onto him. Doesn't that mean I'm working him way too hard?! I was extremely strict if I think about it!! ]

He is someone of great talent. It only took him some time to get there. His footwork needed work and so he would constantly slip and crash into me. As punishment for the ... [ Umpteenth! I can't even remember how many times it was!! ] ... inability to listen to my instruction, he had to run laps.

Running is meant as punishment and help. It strengthens the legs and assists with the posture. [ But he ended up exhausted afterward. He makes a small, unsure face. Really... when you think about it... wasn't I mean? ]

[That all sounds really fair...except.

To keep tripping even though he was talented? Was this like Naomi-chan who always lost to curry udon...or was it like the time they covered themselves with ketchup so Minamoto would think they were injured and pay them more attention? Or maybe he was just clumsy like Yuuri-chan...?

Regardless. That was something she wouldn't know without more information.]

...I can tell you think that's terrible but you realize the very first thing you said was about how amazing he was, right?

Yes.

[ Even though he was given dog-shit cultivation methods, he was able to create something from it! Honestly, that more than speaks for his abilities!! ]

He has quite a bit of talent and abilities. Footwork related to swordplay should be simple for him to figure out. [ He rests his fan against his chin. Is it because it's me? Because a villain isn't allowed to train and give any advice to the protagonist? Because in the original work, Shen Qingqiu never gave any assistance so is fate and destiny trying to keep things the same? I just don't get it! He should figure it out! ]

I just don't understand it. There is no reason he should constantly end up with his arms around me due to his steps being so bad. [ Seriously, what the fuck? ]

[Ah.

She stares at him for a long moment.]

Can you answer a question for me? When he ends up with his arms around you, does he pull away right away like he's embarrassed or does he stay that way until you make him move?

[ What a weird fucking question.

A beat.

Oh, she must wonder about his temperament! To find out if he is truly spoiled, right. Like did he act like a spoiled child would. How are either one of those -- whatever. Teenagers. ]

He would stay that way until I made him move. [ Sigh. ] But I did scold him for it eventually. That is when he grew embarrassed and properly began to learn. And he picked it all up quite well after that, so he did not have to run laps anymore.

[ Indeed, he doesn't want her to think that he forced him to keep running laps when he didn't have to! He isn't a person that abuses his power, okay?! Even so, it really felt like it took a long time?? So, wasn't his first assessment correct about how a villain isn't allowed to teach if they didn't teach in the beginning? ]

Edited 2019-01-24 04:20 (UTC)

[She started this conversation as a distraction and the end goal was always to tease him for being a doting teacher because she feels like he would be...

She did not expect to find out evidence that his disciple may have had feelings for him!?

What? WHAT?

Is it possible!?]

So...let me see if I've got this right. Your student, who is incredibly talented, for some reason couldn't stop tripping over himself and falling into you and even wrapped his arms around you and he was perfectly fine staying there and doing this until you scolded him for it. [She's staring at him like she can't believe she's hearing any of this. Is this even real life anymore?] And...how long was this going on for? And did it happen with anyone else or did he just trip around you?

[ Well, this is fucking upsetting! I have to admit what a shitty teacher I am to someone who looks and sounds like Luo Binghe! If it wasn't for the series of questions... I suppose this is some sort of punishment. ]

That's right. [ He lets out a small sigh. ] It went on for a long time. I would have him run laps. Ten laps. He would come back and his legs would be too weak to hold him. Twenty laps as punishment. The same thing only with the added comment that he was exhausted. So I would have to carry him back to his room to rest. [ If I'm going to admit I'm a shitty teacher, I might as well admit it!! But fuck anyone who thought I abused my disciples!! ]

It was only with me. His footwork was so poor that if I let him train with anyone else I would fear for his life. That meant private lessons to improve and then he could practice without me around. [ Again. WHAT THE FUCK? How shitty of a teacher, am I? Is it just with Luo Binghe because he's the protagonist and he needs to learn on his own?? I can't imagine he wouldn't want his independence and have to keep me at his side! There is Ning Yingying that he needed to impress along with many other sisters??? ]

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