[ Abandoning the towel, he moves a hand to run fingers through Dextera’s hair, slicking it back... just to watch it fall back into its part. But it’s sort of like combing through it. ]
Next time, you can use some shampoo, too. You’ll like how your hair feels after it.
[ there’s no way dextera’s hair will ever stay in place unless guren glues it there. even wet, it just flops back over, but the feeling of fingers in his hair is… pleasant. he wants guren to keep touching him like that, but that is certainly an impossible thing to ask for. ]
Yours. [ a statement, not a question. ] I like the smell.
[ dextera nods, but then, he pays close attention to most things that guren does. he would be absolutely remiss not to notice his shampoo as well, and he likes the scent because it reminds him of guren. ]
Fresh.
[ an assurance, as he steps out of the bathroom. half of the house is down, so no one is going to be using that for a little while. it’s fine to put cleaning it off until tomorrow. ]
Am I OK?
[ he didn’t use soap because he couldn’t, but he pulls up his sleeve—obviously asking guren to sniff his skin here, hoping that the BARN SMELL he insinuated is gone now. ]
[For a second, Guren looks caught off guard. Immediately, he wants to snap back with "I am not smelling you", but isn't he the one who started all of this? And the longer he thinks about it...
He touches Dextera's arm to keep it steady and ducks as he pulls it to him, a little too much like a kiss. But he just sniffs, really. Just a little.]
... [And then he's dropping his arm like he wasn't just overly gentle with him.]
[ guren is extremely welcome for the favor dextera did by offering him the arm without the parasite, even if he doesn’t realize that dextera was so gracious. ]
…
[ guren is so gentle, when he touches dextera like that. he feels guren’s breath, briefly, on the sensitive underside of his arm, and goosebumps raise along his skin just in time for guren to drop it. ]
[ the birds are quiet enough in the bird pit. the chocobos take up the majority of the space, and the chickens have decided to sleep around them, all of them now settled after the time it took dextera to bathe. ]
…
[ he sighs, relieved, to see that they’re all just fine and perfectly unaware of the danger outside. ]
Safe. [ he says this, and immediately sits down to tuck himself against one of the chocobos. guren, come with him!! ]
[Guren walks over, shutting the door to the room for even more protection, leaving his sword still leaning nearby. But he stops a few inches short of Dextera and the pile, still standing and staring down at them.]
You almost look too comfortable. Maybe my bed wasn't all that special, after all.
[Maybe Dextera is more comfortable here, surrounded by birds...]
[Okay, that's too much. He laughs, he can't help it, and sits on the ground near Dextera. He's not against the pile, not leaning against anything or anyone, not close enough to... But he's here.]
Oh, you loved it? [He can't help it... Dextera is so easy to tease. Only he can do this.] I couldn't tell.
[ dextera will invite guren into the pile properly once he’s not flustered over being teased. leave him alone!! ]
I loved it. [ he says it again, more confident. ] Warm.
[ it’s even warmer sleeping next to a big fluffy bird, true, but there’s no substitute for a mattress and another human being. that kind of warmth can’t be replicated. ]
[Guren can't help but laugh again, leaning back just... on the floor, on his back. "Enough to want to do it again?" he wants to ask, but instead he stares up at the ceiling, letting his small smile fade away.
Remember, don't get too lost in this. Don't get too distracted. Mahiru is a lot more quiet now, thanks to his drugs, but that doesn't mean he can forget.]
Good. I'm glad you loved it. I slept pretty well, too.
[ dextera misses the way guren’s smile fades, in lieu of trying to settle himself down. back against the chocobo’s feathers, surrounded by chickens… and tomorrow morning, as always, damian will come by so dextera can make sure he’s unhurt. ]
[ dextera doesn’t know that for a fact, but he’s convinced that there’s no one in the world who could dislike guren. he would be wrong to think that, but he’s convinced nevertheless!!
[Guren stares at the gesture for a little too long before he finally gives in. He can't say no and have Dextera thinking something is wrong, in the end, so he scoots over, but tries not to get too close.
It's a little hard, with this set up. They're pretty close, anyway.]
[ dextera is happy, but he’s not oblivious to the fact that guren is trying to keep a distance despite everything. is it because dextera pushed him away earlier? he’s not sure. ]
…
[ he nods, forcing himself to relax back against the soft, warm feathers of the chocobo. ]
Thank you.
[ not just for coming to cuddle with the birds, but for coming to check on him at all—he felt himself getting too close to doing things he doesn’t want to do, and guren’s interruption has distracted him. ]
[He smirks a little when he says it, pleased with himself. He leans back and relaxes himself, his fingers already itching to hold Dextera's hand. It reaches to pet the chocobo he's leaning against, instead.]
That's what friends are for, I'm pretty sure. At least, mine always did that.
[ dextera breathes out a laugh despite himself. he didn’t like it when guren first pushed himself in, but now, he’s really glad that it happened. as he should have expected, being alone isn’t good for him. ]
Next time. I’ll do that.
[ he pets the chocobo, too, close enough to guren’s hand that he could touch guren with his pinky, if he stretched for it. he doesn’t. ]
[It's weird how Guren is holding himself back but he's wondering why Dextera isn't reaching out for him. It eats at him, and he tries to ignore it for now.]
Haha. I'd like to see you try something like that.
[He could apologize, say he's sorry he scared Dextera, but he's not. He knows it had to be done to get to him, and he did what he had to do. They're fine now, and drawing attention to his fear now will just make him go back to feeling worse.]
[ there’s a conversation happening underneath the words they’re speaking, and dextera notices it with a painful clarity—he almost doesn’t hear what guren is saying, over the sound of his silly, selfish desire.
since he started learning sign language, he hasn’t needed to touch guren’s hand as often. there’s nothing stopping him now, either, no curse or punishment, and yet… ]
…
[ dextera bites the bullet, here, and hooks his pinky around guren’s where both of their hands are against the chocobo’s feathers. with his other, he answers the verbal conversation they’re having, but it feels less important. ]
[That conversation is as good as over when Dextera reaches to touch his hand. It's a relief, and he forgets about the teasing, the words, the signs. He shifts his hand, instead, squeezing their joined pinkies before he gets greedy and links all of their fingers, pulling their hands down between them.
There's no need to pretend to pet the chocobo anymore.
It's so tense, and he still won't say a thing about that. He can't. Not now, not ever. But... just this should be fine, he thinks. He hopes.]
[ dextera adores guren so much it makes his chest ache—it’s not like the dull, empty pain of missing his brother. it’s like his body can’t contain how much he wants to be around guren, his ribs forced out of place by the swell of affection he feels every time they touch.
he shouldn’t say anything, though. guren has enough on his plate, now and always. ]
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[ Abandoning the towel, he moves a hand to run fingers through Dextera’s hair, slicking it back... just to watch it fall back into its part. But it’s sort of like combing through it. ]
Next time, you can use some shampoo, too. You’ll like how your hair feels after it.
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Yours. [ a statement, not a question. ] I like the smell.
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Yours can smell the same. [ So it’ll be nice, right? ] You can really tell?
[ He knows he was given weirdly feminine shampoo but also he doesn’t care, but... ]
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Fresh.
[ an assurance, as he steps out of the bathroom. half of the house is down, so no one is going to be using that for a little while. it’s fine to put cleaning it off until tomorrow. ]
Am I OK?
[ he didn’t use soap because he couldn’t, but he pulls up his sleeve—obviously asking guren to sniff his skin here, hoping that the BARN SMELL he insinuated is gone now. ]
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He touches Dextera's arm to keep it steady and ducks as he pulls it to him, a little too much like a kiss. But he just sniffs, really. Just a little.]
... [And then he's dropping his arm like he wasn't just overly gentle with him.]
Yep. No more of that bird smell clinging to you.
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…
[ guren is so gentle, when he touches dextera like that. he feels guren’s breath, briefly, on the sensitive underside of his arm, and goosebumps raise along his skin just in time for guren to drop it. ]
Birds like it.
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[He corrects him with a smile that he hides as he walks past him, gesturing for him to follow. Back to the bird pit.]
It'll be back on you in no time. I probably smell like them too, already.
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[ the birds are quiet enough in the bird pit. the chocobos take up the majority of the space, and the chickens have decided to sleep around them, all of them now settled after the time it took dextera to bathe. ]
…
[ he sighs, relieved, to see that they’re all just fine and perfectly unaware of the danger outside. ]
Safe. [ he says this, and immediately sits down to tuck himself against one of the chocobos. guren, come with him!! ]
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You almost look too comfortable. Maybe my bed wasn't all that special, after all.
[Maybe Dextera is more comfortable here, surrounded by birds...]
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even so, when guren suggests that dextera is unappreciative of the bed, dextera’s eyes widen and he’s quick to hold his hands up defensively. ]
Ah—!
[ it’s not like that!!! ]
I liked your bed. Loved it.
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Oh, you loved it? [He can't help it... Dextera is so easy to tease. Only he can do this.] I couldn't tell.
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I loved it. [ he says it again, more confident. ] Warm.
[ it’s even warmer sleeping next to a big fluffy bird, true, but there’s no substitute for a mattress and another human being. that kind of warmth can’t be replicated. ]
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[Guren can't help but laugh again, leaning back just... on the floor, on his back. "Enough to want to do it again?" he wants to ask, but instead he stares up at the ceiling, letting his small smile fade away.
Remember, don't get too lost in this. Don't get too distracted. Mahiru is a lot more quiet now, thanks to his drugs, but that doesn't mean he can forget.]
Good. I'm glad you loved it. I slept pretty well, too.
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…
[ dextera nudges guren with his foot. ]
Pillow?
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You don't have to worry about me. [He's...fine...!!! And hetero] You've got enough pillows for the both of us, and I don't think they care for me.
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[ dextera doesn’t know that for a fact, but he’s convinced that there’s no one in the world who could dislike guren. he would be wrong to think that, but he’s convinced nevertheless!!
he gestures for guren to join him. ]
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It's a little hard, with this set up. They're pretty close, anyway.]
Happy?
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…
[ he nods, forcing himself to relax back against the soft, warm feathers of the chocobo. ]
Thank you.
[ not just for coming to cuddle with the birds, but for coming to check on him at all—he felt himself getting too close to doing things he doesn’t want to do, and guren’s interruption has distracted him. ]
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[He smirks a little when he says it, pleased with himself. He leans back and relaxes himself, his fingers already itching to hold Dextera's hand. It reaches to pet the chocobo he's leaning against, instead.]
That's what friends are for, I'm pretty sure. At least, mine always did that.
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Next time. I’ll do that.
[ he pets the chocobo, too, close enough to guren’s hand that he could touch guren with his pinky, if he stretched for it. he doesn’t. ]
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Haha. I'd like to see you try something like that.
[He could apologize, say he's sorry he scared Dextera, but he's not. He knows it had to be done to get to him, and he did what he had to do. They're fine now, and drawing attention to his fear now will just make him go back to feeling worse.]
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since he started learning sign language, he hasn’t needed to touch guren’s hand as often. there’s nothing stopping him now, either, no curse or punishment, and yet… ]
…
[ dextera bites the bullet, here, and hooks his pinky around guren’s where both of their hands are against the chocobo’s feathers. with his other, he answers the verbal conversation they’re having, but it feels less important. ]
I will.
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There's no need to pretend to pet the chocobo anymore.
It's so tense, and he still won't say a thing about that. He can't. Not now, not ever. But... just this should be fine, he thinks. He hopes.]
I'm not going anywhere now.
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he shouldn’t say anything, though. guren has enough on his plate, now and always. ]
…good.
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[One way or another. Laptop, looking for him, he'd take any of it. His thumb smooths over Dextera's hand as he holds it.]
...Not that I think it's wrong that you were wary. I just would have come sooner.
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