[ One of his hands adjusts so that he could lightly rest it on the back of her head, lightly stroking her hair. You've suffered a lot having to be in my heart. His eyes close as he rests his head against hers. I don't mean just ... your arm and your hand. You had to see a lot of terrible things. I felt I had to show them to you so that you could stop trusting in me, so that you could stop believing in me, so that you'd not care about me.
He can speak honestly when he's able to keep his words to himself. I thought if I showed you all the disgusting parts about myself ... the part that admits that I dislike who I am and who I became... that'd be enough for you to... decide I wasn't worth all the trouble.
Shen Qingqiu breathed easy, breathed without complications. His control was always amazing and he applauded himself for it. Normally, a person thinking all these things would feel their breath hitch or their heart hurt, but he is only saying something truthful to himself -- so why be overly upset about it.
But you decided to forgive me, instead. You decided not to pity me and the state I've put myself in. You were willing to die for me. His eyes opened as he looked at nothing in particular. I don't know if I'll ever be able to like myself. I can't promise I will be able to do it. But ... I can tell you... thank you. Yes, rather than 'I'm sorry.' Thank you.
His eyes widen when she does speak, however.
She really is a dear friend; an important friend.
What? Normally in this situation, wouldn't a person feel like they could confess something else! Ha! Miss me with that! He wouldn't devalue everything by saying that this is the moment that he "fell in love with her."
Are you kidding me! That's just saying that I love her for putting up with my bullshit just now! She's more than some manic pixie girl here to solve the problems of this old man! She's a good friend! A wonderful person that can't forgive herself -- but she's joining me in that club! His smile was soft, thoughtful. So, cut any romance from the scene, please!
He finally answers. ]
I think I make it hard. [ He softly laughs. ] But thank you.
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He can speak honestly when he's able to keep his words to himself. I thought if I showed you all the disgusting parts about myself ... the part that admits that I dislike who I am and who I became... that'd be enough for you to... decide I wasn't worth all the trouble.
Shen Qingqiu breathed easy, breathed without complications. His control was always amazing and he applauded himself for it. Normally, a person thinking all these things would feel their breath hitch or their heart hurt, but he is only saying something truthful to himself -- so why be overly upset about it.
But you decided to forgive me, instead. You decided not to pity me and the state I've put myself in. You were willing to die for me. His eyes opened as he looked at nothing in particular. I don't know if I'll ever be able to like myself. I can't promise I will be able to do it. But ... I can tell you... thank you. Yes, rather than 'I'm sorry.' Thank you.
His eyes widen when she does speak, however.
She really is a dear friend; an important friend.
What? Normally in this situation, wouldn't a person feel like they could confess something else! Ha! Miss me with that! He wouldn't devalue everything by saying that this is the moment that he "fell in love with her."
Are you kidding me! That's just saying that I love her for putting up with my bullshit just now! She's more than some manic pixie girl here to solve the problems of this old man! She's a good friend! A wonderful person that can't forgive herself -- but she's joining me in that club! His smile was soft, thoughtful. So, cut any romance from the scene, please!
He finally answers. ]
I think I make it hard. [ He softly laughs. ] But thank you.