[ His expression turns a little doubtful in that she doesn't think that he should have been ashamed of how badly he roasts himself in his own heart. Really, that just makes him look like some masochist that is only happy if he's being kicked down! Who wouldn't think that's disgusting?! ]

Honored to know this teacher thinks so poorly of himself? [ He should just speak plainly since, well, it isn't like he can hide anything at this point on that front. ]

Ask for help. [ He wasn't even sure what he would be asking. What FAQ could he access? His laughter in his head sounds wrong and so he decides to stop making light of his own situation -- until he tries to do it, again, anyway. ]

It will cause problems down the line, but ... I always think that's better than seeing someone I care about look so stricken over my own mistakes. [ He lets out a very small sigh. ] There is no easy way to have a person like themselves again. [ He winces, hating to admit something so pathetic in the open. ]

There is nothing I can ask anyone to do for me. There is no help I can ask for them to give. I merely will re-learn to like who I am... or not. [ Or not. What a thing to say. His insides twist a little bit, but she deserves to know these things without him side-stepping away and laughing it all off. ]

I am still happy when I am able to help others, so this teacher is not always so sad. [ So, well, don't worry, okay? ]