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Guren Ichinose ([personal profile] swordfucker) wrote in [community profile] awashlogs 2018-08-13 05:02 am (UTC)

...I know how you must feel, but you can't blame yourself when you're the victim in all of those scenarios. You can feel frustrated, or angry, or hate yourself all you want— but there are moments when any of us aren't strong enough.

That's why we become stronger.

[He leans forward a little, resting his arms on his legs and trying to get a look at Akira's face.]

I've been too weak my whole life. Too weak to stop the Hiiragis from separating me from their daughter, too weak to stop her from getting in over her head with demons, too weak to save any of my friends, or my father, or the rest of my family. Too weak to stop the kid I took in from getting hurt, or suffering, too weak to stand against anything without losing lives.

I was too weak to take on the bogeyman without casualties, or fight that other thing we found in the forest. I was too weak to stop you all from turning into werewolves, or to figure out where you all were in time to stop you from getting hurt this time.

[Maybe that's enough of his own very clear "I'm too weak to be shit as a leader" insecurities. He's trying to help relate.]

But I have to keep moving forward, and getting stronger. If I want the suffering to stop, then I have to move forward, even if it's painful to keep living. Because people need me.

They need you, too. That's why you're a leader, isn't it? There are people who rely on you. They support you, no matter how many times you might fall. Don't get discouraged. Train, learn, and get stronger.

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